heartbroken

to whom it may concern,

    if i have to look at this little face ONE MORE time and make up an excuse of why he can't get to lolly's house AGAIN today.... (dad says not to bring the boys, it makes it worse when mom can hear them and not get to them, etc. etc.) not to mention 3 little boys isn't exactly relaxing and for sure don't put the mind at ease.

and then to hear our middle baby repeat her name OVER and OVER, thinking that maybe just maybe if my monkey begs and he repeats her name 3 times she will appear...... keep dreamn' this will come true soon boys!!!

so as you can see we are ALL missing lolly (and big daddy too!) They ask me atleast once or twice a day thinking this will be the day when i say YES, you get to go to lollys...

Yesterday my biggest baby was pretty sure the truck ahead was big daddys and even more sure that i wasn't going fast enough to catch up with him and IF i did catch up with them he was for darn sure his lolly and big daddy would snatch him out of the car and rescue him from errands.......no it was NOT big daddy and lolly and the sad face came back... Due to lack of lolly playtime and lack of sleep, no napping,  we have had minor breakdowns from our biggest baby because "he is 100% sure he has yet to tell lolly what he was going to be for halloween"  "and more than that sure knows he needs to go and water the fall flowers he and lolly planted with the help of big daddy lifting the flats of flowers" (the day before her back surgery)

Anyway, mom, we are thinking about you CONSTANTLY and the boys are kinda learning how to help each other so that their mommy doesn't LOSE them on halloween (it gets so dark and all and if they act like they did two days ago....)

using a fork appearing to be somewhat mannerly, oh yeah, he is still standing up (one thing at a time)

helping lil' ranger up the step that once a day (ATLEAST) almost kills him

i am going to say monkey is going for a kiss good-bye before school and not a slam down of this angels head??

even the dogs are helping out, thanks bay bay, this step is ever so appealing to this lil' guy!!

this is a happy boy due to the sharing of this fantabulous hat my monkey made, i have questioned what in the heck it is several times ("its a really neat Halloween hat mommy that you can wear if it rains".....  i am questioning why in the world we pay a bonified teacher with a masters in art, really???) but sharing it none-the-less means alot or means he doesn't give a rip about it, either one!

this is a picture of the other dog NOT helping me out.... which is par for this dog i might add.  this lil' lamb is OBSESSED with his doggies and can't think about eating lunch and we had about 10 minutes to eat and get to my biggest babies fall program (yes, we made it! and my monkey was so great and daddyO and i were so proud- we love you charlie! i admit i was heartbroken for mom that she couldn't be there....if you know my mom, there is NO place she would rather be than front row of the program and my greatest aunt said she was going to scale down the info. about it as not to sadden our lolly anymore)

look at those adorable boots keeping my lil' lamb's feetsies warm

these are just random shots...but looking back i have about 100 of the first two boys eating their "first cereal bites" and this last angel started eating cereal about 6 months ago...but better late than never... here he is enjoying some chicken salad, in NOt a high chair but a booster seat, thats right, on the counter stool that could easily tip over.... very much a third child... loved like no other!!!!

so...

Our hearts will go on missing mom for now.  We had a doctor visit yesterday at mom's house, he said we are moving and grooving right along so that is good.  mom and dad have been able to enjoy a little teeny bit of tv time together and dad is hanging in there all the while..... Still awaiting our big break on recovery!!! thanks to all you fellow friends and family for supporting my mom and dad with these yummy meals, flowers, prayers most of all, etc. etc.

Holly and I are planning on writing moms thank you notes to show how VERY much we are blessed to have all of you in our lives and to take that off mom's plate when she is feeling good.  So... hold your horses... holly is very much pregnant with my angelic niece and starting up a company and i am, well, just crazy busy with fall things (the lambs, church fall festival went GREAT last night and we had a good time) and the boys but am awaiting the sweetest note cards EVer in the mail to write these on so don't get your undies in a wad, i know women (notice i didn't say older women) and their thank you notes, ha!!